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[Oct. 22nd, 2006|02:00 am] |
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I lied. Things are still pretty bad. A lot of kids my age are dying. Accidents, or murder. It's really shocking, and horrible.
A family was, literally, split in half, a father and son ripped away from a mother and another son. How is this possible. Why is this happening. Why here? Why this year? Why now? Why anytime, or anyone?
A man, known for 17 years by one woman, dead. After fighting a war in Iraq, he returns, and shortly after, is killed in a car accident. His friends and family are left with nothing. A wonderful, loving man...dead.
Gone.
Devestation is everywhere and there's nothing anyone can do about it. Life is tough, and someone told me, live it one day at a time...that's all any of us can do.
So what happens when each day we live gets progressively worse than the days before? Do we still take it day, by day, hoping for the best, hoping that something good might possibly find it's way into our lives? I don't want to live like that. I want to live, knowing something good is going to happen. Knowing that I lived my life without regrets, and without an abundance of pain...and without wishing I had done something different. That's, basically, an impossible dream for me. I've already wasted 15 years, and the next 15 don't look too promising. People move away without knowing your true feelings for them....people die, and are lost forever, adn we'll never get the chance to know them better, or love them more, or anything else with them..forever.
I hate high school, and growing up, and death, and pain,and sex, and regrets, and life.
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well, I think you should still try and hope for the best and take it day by day because even if everyday does seem to get worse and worse.. there will eventually be that day when it all starts to turn around, when it all starts to go up and up. But thats only if you just try and fight the shit that life throws at you. If you give in, you will just be covered in shit, but if you try, you will be all clean and happy (wow, that was both really disgusting and kind of deep, i am amazing.) anyways just dont give up, take it from me, it dosnet work.
p.s I dont think ANYONE can live life with out having regrets.. if they tell you they do, they are lying. | |
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